BABY ROBOT ♥ MONSTER MUNCHET !

mineeee ♥ he always gonna be mine :) love you sayang !

Sometimes at night
When I look up to the sky
I start to think of you
And then ask myself why
Why do I love you?
I think and smile
Because I know the list could run on for miles
*goodnight baby. i wish you were here right beside me.

FRIENDSHIP

love is friendship. friendship is love. if love fails, friendship should remain. for friendship is the foundation of love

My best ever friend since i were in 15. i miss you guys a lot !
you guys always in my mind. i miss our moments.
growing up together. share every sadness and happiness time.
*roza & fana*

my longest friends. since i kenal erti dunia. too many story we made. tadika was the best
ever moments. since i were in age of 5 until now :)
*au yong cui cui*

i miss you a lot. someone yg dahulunya always ade dgn i. sharing our story together.
but it just our past memory. we are going our own way now :(
*ayang gomez*

my best ever friend. having our greatest time together .
she was great. i love her till end of my life. we spent a lot of happiness day together :)
*shafirina azmi*

My boyfie with his friend and mine :) time neyh memang kite close sgt kan ?
*amal & fiera*

My lesbo partners. i miss you guys anyway. i miss our moments b :(
you are the greatest friends i ever had. you know when im pretending that i am okayh.
*bella & miraa*

*lararian*

My lesbo, she is the best ever friend.
*miraa*

gambar birthday saya :) sumpahh im touched time neyhhh.
rinduu sgt sgt kat dorang. being with them a year is more than enough. too many bad things we did together :)
*tanjung 08*

*tanjung 08*

my bestfriend time im in standard 3. we are so close gile dulu.
i bgtaw everything, bout my prob, my secret to her.
same goes to her too :)
*ness*

JE TAIME BABY

You're always there for me through both the good times and the bad.
You're always there to laugh with, or to help me when I'm sad.

Down at the mall even though we had no money.
Laughing at anything and everything, yet none of it was funny.

Walking around the block, or watching movies all day,
We never really ran out of things to say.

We howled at the full moons, would spin at parks until we were sick,
Helping each other through both thin and thick.

im tired :) thank you.

hello world , actually i tade mood nak menaip pagi neyhhh. seriouslyyy ! i dont have any idea on what should i right.

semalam, f ade dgn saya. die kerja dgn saya :) seriousssly penat sgt sgt sgt. kesian awak kan b kann ? awak ikot je kemana saya pergi. makan pown nak bersama jugak. kalau saya nak ke tandas awak pown teman kan. tapi awak tgu kat luar je. saya sukaa ! saya suka bila awak selalu ade dekat dgn saya. andd semalam, awak dgn rambut baru awak. OMG ! awak sgt handsomeee. saya nak pandang je. saya tergelak bukan sebab rambut bary awak tu, tapi saya gelak sebab mcm tak percaya , f yg saya kenal duluuu rambut panjang, dah jadik pendek. 

*sayang with his long hairr . ohh i miss it baby. seriously.

*sayang with his short hair. eheee, no comment baby. tapi awak hensem :)

and semalam dgn kwn kwn :) thanx sebab awak sume always ade dgn i jugak. hehehe, u guys taw problem saya kan ? you guys ckp pape jadik korang tetap ade dengan i. korang akan tolong saya. ohhh, saya maken sayang kat awak semua even kite baru saje kenal.

btw to mama, thanx too. coz sanggop bersusah payah gak carik duet dgn ayong kan ? kite same same penat kan ? kesian ayong tgk mama. tapi mama tuu tanak dowk diam. ayong suruh dowk diam, mama nak gak pergi. 

btw , saya memang penat. tak cukup rehat neyhh. and esok plak saya nak g register subject saya. haihh, kene keluar awal awal pagi laa jwb nyer :(

i ♥ you

i ♥ FRDS,my sweetheart baby :)

Memory is a child walking along a seashore.  You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things. 

JUST BE YOURSELF :)

Im wondering, all day long whispered, inner dialog by myself, why? why there is a people tend to cut out when they are doing wrong and they said that they didnt ?
they say it was okay, when its not? screaming out loud saying im sorry, i wouldnt do it again, when deep inside, they knew that it will be repeated ?
when they tend to be someone else, forgetting who the hell they are, which foreign are they? what tongue that they are mouth speak? what is they are origin dialect? whats they are orient accent?

This is the biggest problem,its okay when you become someone wannabe, its was okay when you're copying or tracing someone biography, but its not okay, when you're start wearing a makeup even when you're going to the bed, and start mimicking people day life,

AND TELLING OTHERS THAT THEIR LIFE IS WAS ACTUALLY YOURS.

Why in the world you want to be in someone shoes when youre had your own?

Oh im sorry bloggies forgot to say hi to you :) thanks for reading :)

all the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.

life is hard, but it must go on,nothing can stops it to flow. although we have been trampled, been hit repeatedly, been cheated on, been left by someone who means the world to us, life still have to go on. we cant giving up, we can only hold the mistakes up. we all have been filled by love, hate, anger, hope, happiness, grief, lust, devastated. all at once, we still managed to breath. sometimes things work out, but sometimes they dont. that is just the way life live.

*i wish i could change everything.
i wish it just a dream

:) :) :)

i am still counting.

1 month and 27 days more to go !

sweetest story for today

• first thing, in this morning, like usual me ang him akan talk kat skype. i dont know why. starting 2011, too many sweetest thing he did. and like usual, i will smiling for no reason. 

I LOVE  SY
*he did it for me. aww, im touch okayh !

I APPRECIATE YOU. ESPECIALLY YOUR HEART SYG. SY LOVE F
* i make it for him, just to show how much i appreciate him :)

• tonight before we end our day. 

S : Soulmate, are you sleeping ?
F : Tak syg. Tgh mengelamun pk buah hati saya.
S : Awak, nyamuk gatal geget saya mlm ni.
F : Hahaha. Kurang ajar nyamuk ni geget buah hati saya. Tu baru betol main kasar name nye. *just now dekat skype, me and him ade ckp pasal main kasar and main lembut
S : Tolong saya b. Tak tahan dah. Byk sgt ni. Habes merah merah badan saya.
F : B bahaya. Pasang ubat nyamuk awak. Pls, tak nak syg saya sakit.

OMG ! how sweet you are now syg. seriously i am melting. ehee, i nak merapu. tapi tak jadik. hmm, tomorrow morning nak bangun awal. nak skype lagi dgn awak ! i miss you baby ! badly missing you. and the most favourite text that i get just now is " B u tau tak, u gf i yang paling sweet :) ". kire before this tade lagi girl mcm i dalam life u kan b ? im so proud syg ! i want you to be the last guy in my life.

GOODNIGHT STALKERRR !

memory of 31st december 2010.

i am crazy with camera, i knew it

Quiksilver meet Roxy . yeah we meant to be together .

My favourite food. thanx b belanja i makan :)

ferd was behind me, bz snapping picture :)

Our personal things :)

Apple pie my favourite. same goes to him.

he said he like this picture the most

peace baby. i love you till my last heart beat.

while saya tgh mengunyah fries, sempat lagi awak amek gambar

He like it :) kan baby kan ?

Shy when awak curik gambar saya begini. ehee.

he won my hearts !

we went out yesterdy. yeah for this year, neyh first time. firstly , ferd sampai rumah around 1 pm mcmtuu. i tolong buat rambut die. straight kan rambut die yg wave tuu. rambut maken panjang kan. so maken susah nak jage kowt. then after rambut die dah siap, die staright kan rambut i plak. i plan pakai baju yg i baru beli last week dgn el dekat pavi tuuu. we guys park dekat pavi. easier laa kan. coz we plan pown nak pergi tgk movie.

firstly g book ticket duluu. our story start puku; 4.10 pm. engat nak g lunch dulu. tapi takot tak sempat. so pusing pusing pavi. get some snack for eat.

meet the parent. memang best. our seat number are B08 & B09. paling atas. selesa sgt sgt. tak mcm last week tgk dgn el. palinggggg bawah. tension je coz kene mendongak. guys, better tgk cite neyh okayh ? memang tergelak je korang.

next after tgk movie, baru nak g makan. tataw mane tempat best dah nak mkn. last last plan g bb makan kat nasi ayam. ade satu kedai tuu, in front of bistro memang sedap. harga pown not bad :) should be bulan puasa dah pergi makan sane. tapi tak kesampaian. coz time bulan puasa kami asyik mkn KFC je. ehee :) have a great day :) makannn memang sedap. lepak lepak kejap.

next plan nak pergi carik brg. puas pusing. bb memang tade ape laa kan. g fahrenheit. ferd ckp simpan duet. i baru beli dress nak beli baru lagi. okayh laa syg. i dgr cakap u ye ? so kami pown pusing pusing jap. then g pavilion plak. pergi kedai superman shop tuu. i plan for anniversary present nak bg die baju superman. die kate die suke. die memang gile superman. i plan one for him and another one for me. i pown nak jugak baju superman ! another plan, i je tahu. keep secret. die taleyh tahu.

then, dah pusing pusing tgk pe yg kami nak, balek. tbe tbe je hujan. taleyh laa nak balek. benci hujan ! g lepak tempat lama kami. LALA SEAFOOD. sane memang best. sedap kowt ! i plakk memang teringin nak makan cendol thailand. guys, korg patot try. area kampung baru. makan je kerja harini. hahaha, awak nak saya gemok ye syg ?

eventhough too many bad things i did, too many times i hurt him, he still try to get my heart back, and be the winner in my heart. he try to make me fall in love to him again and again. yeah, im regret with what happen before. hopefully, nothigs happen next :)

i am not reluctant to love you F

forver yours :)

Pushing forward,arching back

si dia dan saya

F: ehemm

S: ye b :)

F : =P i hate u

S : i hate you too =P

F : -.- sebok tiru i geget u kang

S : okayh. saya benci awak !

F : alaa :( x cinta saya dah? 

S : awak laa tak cinta saya dah

F :suke2 jer. dah ler nak mandi. nak jumpe buah hati saya jap lagi =P

eheee, si dia tgh siap nak datang rumah tuuu. saya nak g mandi sebentar. ily MONSTER :)

PURNAMA MERINDU

Bermaknakah tipa baris kata-kata
Ataukah hanya di bibir saja
Bersungguhkan rindu yang engkau pamirkan
Ataukan sekadar lakonan

Rindu
Telah melekat dalam hatiku
Walau awan lalu
Rinduku tak berubah arah

c/o
Purnama mengambang cuma berteman
Bintang berkelipan dan juga awan
Siapa tahu rindu yang mencengkam
Di hatiku
Aku meminta pada yang ada
Aku merindu pada yang kasih
Aku merayu padamu yang sudi
Merinduku

(Sendirian)
Bertemankan malam sepi
(Aku meminta pada yang ada)
Aku merindu pada yang kasih
(Aku merayu)
Padamu yang sudi memujuk
Aku meminta
(Pada yang ada)
Aku merindu
(Pada yang kasih)
Aku merayu
(Padamu yang sudi)
Merinduku
Hiaskanlah cinta di jaris manisku
Sinarkan bagai gemerlap kencana
Tandakanlah kasih di mercu kalbu
Serikanlah purnama yang merindu

saya doakan awak bahagiaa :)

11.01.11 :)

MIRAFZAL

happy anniversary for both of youu. i yang excited lebih kat sini. eheee. tapi pape pown i tumpang happy :) b, today is yours anniversary. you tguu plak lagi 2 month me and ferd anniversary. sure you happy sgt sgt kann ? dah lame you tak couple lame mcm ni. serious i pown tumpang happy jugak b. btw, doakan relation i dgn ferd can keep as long as you and afzal okayh ? i loveee you som much saraa. i misss you more than you know.

SYZFRDS

sayang, u make me proud okayhh. i love you. deeply, yes you are mine. i dont want to let you go even to leave you. too many happiness and haredest we share together. please stand with me baby. i'll promise that you will never regret .

*syaza yaacob

BERSENDIRI

aku berjalan sendiri
ditemani bayang bayang sendiri
ditemani nostalgia ngeri.

renungku sejenak
kisah kisah kehidupanku
yang telah jaoh meninggalkanku

apakah bahagia itu
akan menghampiri lagi ?
menemani aku di sini ?
kerna aku tak ingin bersendirian lagi :(

its unfair !

seriously tak faham kenapa Ana Rafali menang AJL . aku dah target Faizal Tahir yang menang. malam tadi suara Ana Rafali bukan sedap mana pownnn. tgk Faizal Tahir, show diee, memang terbaek kowt. lagi lagi lagu hanyut. my favourite song. gilee ahh. rasanya ramai tak puas hati kowt. termasok laaa aku.

saya terpaksa. awak tolong faham. 

saya rasa ini yang terbaek untuk kite. 

maafkan saya. saya banyak salah dengan awak. 

BROKEN HEARTED

although you may not love me, although you may not care. if you shall ever need me, you know that i'll be there. your love may all be taken, your heart may not be free, but when your heart is broken, you can always lean on me. i'll never stop loving you, i know because i tried. all the oceans in the world, can't hold the tears i've cried.

I WANT TO EAT NOW !

I am starvingggggggggggg ! please anyone bawak kan syazaa makanan. sumpah tak larat dah :( rugi malam tadi tak mkn kenyang kenayang. menyesal kowttttttttttt !

POTRET KEHAMPAAN

Dan Semua telah hilang… potret kehampaan
Apa yang kutakutkan kini menjadi nyata
Tersisa hanyalah... sesal tak habisnya
Kebodohan yang memaksa... membuatku nista

Namun percuma meyakinkanmu
Kau memutarkan fakta
Pengorbanan tak lagi berarti
Hancurkan...

Telah kucoba dengar, semua hanya alasan
Terpuruk dalam pedih kuyakin, kau kembali dengannya
Kulenyapkan semua
Puisi omong kosongmu
Menorehkan tinta penuh duka kini ku tak berdaya

Hanya menunggu harapan yang sirna
Menanti asa yang tak kunjung tiba
Membuat cerita berakhir nestapa

Namun percuma meyakinkanmu
Kau memutarkan fakta
Pengorbanan tak lagi berarti
Hancurkan... 

Telah kucoba dengar, semua hanya alasan
Terpuruk dalam pedih kuyakin, kau kembali dengannya
Kulenyapkan semua
Puisi omong kosongmu
Menorehkan tinta penuh duka kini ku tak berdaya

love is gone

sometime we need to let someone we love go for their own happiness :) that is what i try to do now. yeahhh i know its hard. but it a must right ? whatever it is, there are someone who surely lovee you more then he is :)



*part if the list .

sweetest memory :)

seriously penat sgt sgt sgt. yeahh i pergi shopping with my brother and my sister. mane lagi kalau bukan pavi kann. house of heaven sana. hahaha :D and i just brought my new taybon and dress. aww i like it okayhhh. seriously lawa. both kaler hitam. thanx guysss, sebab happy kan life kakak awak neyhh.

and tadi jugak my brother belanja tgk movie. Ex Haunted Lover. hahaha. kelakar kowt. bukan kelakar cerita tuu. tapi aku tak habes habes menjerit. mcm org gilaa. memang enjoy gileee. around 10 baru nak balekk, baru nak engat rumahhh.

with my lovely grandma and kikie. we love you both !

elmo, my brother :)

before out .

crazyness of us .

like a rawkstar babe ! hahaha

siblings heart ,

NIGHTMARE

saya tatahu kenapa, every night, around 4 to 5 am , surely i will wake up from my sleep. errr, whats the problem ? something bad will happen to me. yeahh i know it. every night surely kene nightmare yg gile kejam. i dont know how to describe my dream is because sometime my dreams is blank. serious shit ! im afraid. what will happen to me next ?

Headache yang teramat !

kenapa kepala aku berat sangat hah ? dari semalam lagi. seriously rasa nak pecah. mula mula aku engat sebab aaku ade paper exam math harini. tapi maken lama aku maken terasa mcm nak meletup. ape yang aku pk sgt kan neyhh ? aku tataw laa. kepala aku memang serabot gileeee. dah tak larat dahhh. tolong laaa blaaa. aku serabot laa kalau kaw ade kat kepala aku neyhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( tak larat okayhhhh.

today exam is ,

business mathemathic ! i am ready for your paper. yeahhhh, masalah masalah sume saya tolak ketepi okayhh ? saya tanak engat paper. i only think bout my paper. dah laa contemporary business semalam hampehh je saya jawab. tapi tape. today i am very very ready. i loveeeeeeeeeee math a lot ! wish me luck eyhhh ?

btw, saya rinduu awak berdua. saya perlukan awak berdua. saya tanak kecewa kan awak berdua. maafkan saya. make it fair, everyone hurts. how ?

saya tanak awak dan awak. saya perlu bersendirian.

sekian terima kasih

MENANTI CINTA.

Sejak lama aku berdiri
Dalam sepinya rongga hati
Tak satupun guru mampu menjawab

Hanya padaMu ku bertanya
Lewat setiap sujudku ini
Siapakah nanti cinta untukku

Wahai penilai hati lihat batinku
Nyaris bernanah karna luka tersayat
Merana menantikan kisah dan kasih hidupku

Rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
Namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
Tuntun hatiku dalam sabar menanti jodohku

Hanya padaMu ku bertanya
Lewat setiap sujudku ini
Siapakah nanti cinta untukku

Wahai penilai hati lihat batinku
Nyaris bernanah karna luka tersayat
Merana menantikan cinta dan kasih hidupku

Rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
Namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
Tuntun hatiku dalam sabar menanti jodohku

Rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
Namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
Namun harus ku ihklaskan semua nasib cintaku...
PadaMu... hu...

*i dont know why, sekarang aku byk layan lagu and perasaan :( sedih gilee. aku benci jadik diri aku. menyesal semua ada. aku tataw ape yg terbaek untuk aku. bg aku , semua yg terbaek. semua nak jaga aku. aku je yang buat masalah. ntah laaa. tade sape mampu tolong aku. aku broken gilee skg.

They are gone. and i am hurt :(

seriously this song touch my heart deeply :( i am still confusing. i dont know what should i do. i try to be the best. but i cant. everything that i do make some of the people hurt so much. i know it is my mistake. i shouldnt have to do all this. but i am a normal person. i made a lot of mistake. yeah i know it. but what is the way for me to fix it to make everything gonna be fine ? i dont have the answer right now. people, pleaseee, gimme an opinion. i dont know how to make everything run perfectly. im afraid to hurt some of the people feeling. and i also can be as strong as what you guys think about. im happy with my life, my way now. but i know it is wrong. GOD, i made a lot of sins now :( please forgive me. pleaseee change me back. like syazaaa before. i hate syazaaa now !

She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.

In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus)

Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.

She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.

Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus x2)

Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.

*goodnight peep :( im still broken. while heard this song, im crying. im sorry baby if i hurt you so much. both of you, i love you guys. sorry for being this way.

JUST A DREAM by Nelly :(

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.

Who she come back? No one knows.

I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.

Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.

I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.

And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.

Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.

Cuz I can still feel it in the air.

See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.

She left me, I'm tied.

Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.

Who she come back? No one knows.

I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.

Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.

And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.

Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.

Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.

And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.

But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.

Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.

Who she come back? No one knows.

I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.

Who she come back? No one knows.

I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.

Who she come back? No one knows.

I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

*i hope it just a dream :(

welcome 2011 !

i cant believe that on 2011 i am going to 20. am i ? OMG syazaaa you are getting older after this. so pleaseee try to fix your attitude okayh ? haha. but i still miss my teen life. i meann in teen age. it pretty cool okayh ! buta now on, mama no need to worry bout me anymore. mama , im being an adult. i know how to take care of myself. hehe :) ayong takan jadik manaja macam dulu dah. serious je nnt. i want to make people proud to be with me. yeahh , i want to be the best among the best. hahaha, i tataw neyh kata kata kosong or what. tapi i want to make it ! i'll try okayh. pleaseee tolong syaza ye ? F. thanx for everything. i am growing in front of you. from teenage to adult. and to my friendsss, all my friendsss. i love you guys so much ! to my partayyy people, you rock up my lifeee. hahaha. im 20 nowww, so it more easier for us kann ? cuma korang laaa. hahaha,

goodbye to memorable 2010 and hello adventurous 2011 

hahaha im getting older !

my family,

from left : kikie, el, ayong, mama, qurnia & abah

my family without my sister. coz time neyhh mia dekat singapore. i loveeeee you gus very muchhh ! you guy always be with me no matter what my condition is.
kikie, awak adek ayong yang sgt nakal ! suka kacau ayong kalau ayong dalam bilik. then manja sgt dengan ayong. sampai ayong rasa awak neyh adek betol ayong. sumpah sayang sgt sgt dekat kikie.
elmo, kaw adek aku sampai ble ble. haha memang kaw adek aku pown. kaw selalu belanja kakak kaw neyh. hahah biase laa, ayong tak kerja mcm kaw. aku kan belajar lagi.
qurnia, new born brother. hehehe, eventhough kite tak berapa close lagi, ayong sayang awak okayhh ?

TO MAMA & ABAH : happy 6th anniversary. may god bless our family. to both of you, jangan laa gadoh selalu okayh. pening laa kepala ayong tengok. haihhhh, kang menyampuk kangg marah. thats why ayong byk diam je. btw, i love you both. ma, you are the greatest mom. you teach me how to be a stronger woman. abah, eventhough you are not my dad, i love you. you are the only dad i have. dari kecik ayong tade ayah, and now, bile abah datang dalam family ayong, and jaga mama, it really a big help. i appreciate you okayhh dad !

p/s : today mama and abah anniversary. 1.1.11. perfect kannnn ?