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hello, anyway I'm Syaza. Uncle Nana's & Aunt Shelly's daughter. Turning to 20. KLMU student. Taking Diploma in Advertising. Actually, idk what to write ! :D I smile &a laugh too much for stupidest reason sometime. Tetapi seorg yg pemalu when first time meet someone new, a paper bag has never seemed like a BETTER accessory for hiding embarrassed laa. I love my friend :) I grown up already, to be a BETTER PERSON & even more meaner than before :) I am not here to pleased any of you people out there. This is just a place where I share my thoughts and random personal things about myself. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. You're most welcome to drop in your comments and opinion, it may help me alot in the future time. Thanks for dropping . Loves, SyzaJacob TQSM<3
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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I LOVE THEM TILL MY LAST BREATH :)


my sister mya. even kat rumahh syaza selalu gadoh dgn dye. campak kasut dye kwar rumah, campak baju baju dye, gune barang barang dye tapi she is the best sis i ever had. memang dye garang. hahaha :D tapi ade mase dye baek. baek kalau aku nak bwat jahat. gambar ni aku snap time aku g shopping kat kedai baju dye. uniqlo farenheit. sape sape nak shopping g kedai dye. sure dapat discout. hahaha. love you mya !

korangg kenal kann sape mamat neyh. berapa byk kali dye mencapap kat blog aku. tataw bape byk kali aku sebot nama dye. time neyh pown aku kwar dgn adek adek aku. bwat surprise ntok dye:) i bought him new jeans. sukaaa nyer dye dapat jeans baru tuhh. and ble dye pakai memang aku suke sgt sgt tgk. i owned him. he is mine forever . kannn b kannn ? :)

she is Nur Atieqa. kawan fb aku. gile bapak close. sayangg sgt sgt kat dye. last meet dye last week. kebetulan dye pown kwn dgn bestfriends aku jugak, effy and eqa. korangg sorry bukan tanak taruk gambar korang jugak. tapi i tade gambar terlawa. hahaha. sayanggg korang sgt sgt sgt. and korang laa closest friends i now. nak ngadu pownn kat orang. korang laa yang taw i neyhh cmne kannnn :)
hahaha ini korangg sure kenal kannn, actually bukan kwn sgtt. tapi mia tuuu memang comel gile gile. suka sgt tgk dye. time neyh dekat curve.aku dgn effy kejar dye sampai ke toilet. actually mia n siti dowk belakang meja kitorang time mkn kat mc donald. tapi malu malu nak tegur. last last dye g toilet aku pown bantai ikot. hehehe. dye memang comel. nak baby mcm dye :)

here is it. my brother, reed. ohh gosh dye memang hensem segak kacak sume. time neyhh kitorang saje je maen webbie. saje nak posing posing. tataw nak bwat ape dah. actually byk gile gambar dye yang kelakar gile. tapi dye tak bg upload. so i preffer this picture. sebab dye nampak comel sgt sgt sgt.

*actually gambar neyh patot post dekat blog. cuma tade mase lagi.
so here is it :)

i meet my bff :) yess i miss her a lot !

yesterday should be aku pergi kelas advertising. dah janji dgn effy nak bwat assignment
business yang bertimbun. siap dah text dekat hp effy and wall fb dye lagi cakap jgn lupa
bwk assignment on monday.

as usual mama always kejotkan aku. with a laziest feeling. rase cam tanak pergi kelas je
terpaksa bersiap.kelas pukul 11 tapi pukul 8.30 dah kwar. eheee. ape lagi kalau bukan melantak
mc donald. i loving it :) tak sah kalau tak pekena mc donald satu hari. mama, bestfriend kat kolej
and tersayang pown sudah maklum that syaza very very addicted with mc donald. who want to find me, search
me there okayh baby ? :)

having my breakfast sambil tuu online mukabuku :) OMIGOD ! lupaaa. today one of my longest friends, i mean fanaa ajak
hang out. i miss her alot ! mula mula engat nak pergi after my class. tapi pk pk balek cancel laaa. nak g jumpa fanaa.
she is the most person in my life. lama benar tak jumpa dye kannn. lama gila tak menanges dekat bahu dye. rinduuu kaw sayanggg :)
dah habes makan sume aku pown carik cab patah balek rumah siap tukar baju. nak kwar date dgn dye kann. and bukan fanaa je.
mayam pown ade. me and her were in a same school before. i mean at Teknik Kuala Selangor.

fanaa suruh datang awal sikit. so secepat yg mungkin aku try datang. eheee. tahan taxi lagi. nak ke rumahh fanaa. tapi sebab dye punyer pasal
tade hal. bukan selalu jumpa bff aku neyh. rupa rupanya dye suruh datang awal sbb aunty nak g breakfast. tapi kedai uncle rahim tutup.
kesian aunty. last last dye sekali mengekor pegi one utama.

aku dgn fanaa g parkson carik present towk boyfiee fanaa. then pastuu dah beli ape sume g lepak arena foodcourt. tataw nak mkn ape. engat nak
makan mc donald again. but unlucky. there are too many people queing there. thats whyy aku and fanaa plan g lepak minom je. then snap picture jap kitorang
g beli ticket movie. waiting for mayam and fanaa's boyfiee.

lastly we planned to watch 'let me in'. errrr , i dont know how to descibe about this movie. tapi sumpah boleh menanges dalam tuuu.
i almost cried there okayh. kalau ade baby surely aku dah nanges dah. ni ade fanaa n mayam so agak malu sikit nak nanges. habes cerita aku terus gerak balek. mama
suruh amek babies dekat baby sitter.





*btw i love you fanaa even aku rase cam kite tak berapa rapat cam duluuu kan.
eheee, i wish we could be like before.

guys check out bout her at my previous entry.

Monday, November 22, 2010

for you SHAFIRINA .

CIK RINAA SAYANGGGGG.
maaf harini fiza tanak g kelas. so syaza pown malas g kelas. eheee. tape kannn cik rina kannn ?
nnt esok fiza janji fiza g kelas ye ? :) today sgt sgt malas laaa cik rina. nak jumpa kwn lamaaa fiza. hahaha :D jgn maraaa taw. last week rina tak datang kelas advertising kan ? this week fiza plak tak datang ye. hehehe.


*sayang you cik RINA.
from FIZA :D

i want you to say it baby


"Every girl wants a man that she can go to in her sweats, hair a mess, make up running down her face, eyes red from crying and the first thing he says to her is "Baby you're beautiful" and means it"


Sunday, November 21, 2010

20 November 2010

yessss , harini memang boring. aku tataw nak buat ape. tak kwarrr ape. dowk lepak rumah. kemas bilik aku yang berselerak sakan tuhhh. puas hati. then tgk dvd :)
btw mulaa rinduu dekat kawan kawan aku. semalam lepak. korangggg, syaza rinduuuu korang.
EFFY, EQA, TIEQA && KYLA.
semalam balek banquet g lepak tanjung. dorg dorg ajaaa syaza maen card. hahaha.
best best. sukaaaa sgt sgt. even pening sket. then ferd datang. dye pown hoin sekaki.
semalam pown ferd belanja makan subway. hahaha , sorry sayang, syaza tade dwet nak belanja lagi. so sygg belanja laa ye ? ily ! :)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

nak kucing baru. sape nak bg ?

chomel si penyebok. ayong gatal amek gambar awak ye mell ? :)

saya nak ade kucing baru. kucing saya yang gemok neyh dah tua sgttt. and sgttt laa pemalas. eheee, sorry chomel, ayong nak jage yang muda muda. baru best kacau kacau. awak tuuu dah tua sgttt. dah tak larat nak gadoh dgn ayong. hari hari mintak makan then tdo. saya nak sekor yang macam chomel. gemokkk and kaler hitam hitam skeyttt. or maybe macam snowbell saya yang telah tiada. rinduuu sgt sgt dekat snowbell. putih and gebu. tido sure dengan saya. ayong rinduuu awak snowbell :( hmmm, tape tape. saya carik kucing baru and bgtaw mama nnt :)

hear what i try to said,






Your best friend is the one who’s laughed with you, cried with you, and despaired with you. Your best friend is the one who loves and accepts all the strange or quirky things about you. Your best friend is the one who’s shirts are stained with mascara from your tears.

Your best friend is the one who can look at you and have a whole conversation without moving their mouth once. Your best friend is the one who’s seen you at your worst, and said you were the best. Your best friend is the one who fought for and defended you-even when they knew you were wrong. Your best friend is the one who can honestly say “I love you.” and not think twice about how it was taken.

Your best friend is the one who crashes on your couch at four in the morning. Your best friend is the one who kicked you in the ass and straightened you out when you were about to make a big mistake. Your best friend is the one who knows you inside out. Your best friend is the one who never has to ask- they already know the answer. Your best friend is the one with whom you can’t play twenty questions because they already know the answer to every question.

Your best friend is the one who fought with you, missed you, and made up with you after many bitter exchanges were made. Your best friend is the one who stood by your side when you were having a hard time, and always forgave you for being a bitch. Your best friend is the one who doesn’t expect an apology but deserves one.

Your best friend is the one who covered for you to keep you out of serious trouble. Your best friend is the one who never judged you for what you had done, never called you a dirty name because you had been less than good. Your best friend is the one who is your main partner in crime.

Your best friend is the one who will always need you and miss you in times of need when you can’t be there, but knows you would be if it was possible. Your best friend is the one whom you may need most, who will always seek your company, but will push you away to avoid pulling you down with them when they know they can’t win.


I LOVE YOU FRIENDSSS ?
*And remember, our friendship is forever! Pls don't break it

Monday, November 15, 2010

listen here :)




Dear wind, can you hug him tight for me?
Dear clouds, can you tell him that I love him for me?
Dear stars, can you whisper to him that I miss him for me?
Dear rainbow, can you cheer up his day so it'll be colorful?
Dear rain, can you kiss his cheeks for me?
Dear sun and moon, can you company him all the time?
Because, I'm not by his side, but I still want him to know that I'll always think of him ?




Yours,
Syaza Jacob

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

i want ,

i nak kwar today.
i nak g tengok movie.
i nak lepak pavi.
i nak ponteng kerja harini.
i nak jumpa boifren i kejap lagi.
i nak buat macam macam harini :D


*tapi esok dah nak exam kannnnnn syazaaaaa ? :)

Monday, November 08, 2010

Sarah Amirah Ibrahim


We are together for whatever. Am i rite? haha :D Aku punya kau dan dia sahaja tatkala nih. Hope korang tak pergi menjauh tinggalkan diri ini terpontang panting seorang diri. Aku minta maaf andaikata satu hari nanti aku melukakan jiwa kalian dua. Tak kalian dua,pada sesiapa juga la. Aku banyak sedar sudah sama diri ini. Aku sedar akan realiti kewujudan aku di dunia. Sepertinya aku hanya boneka tempat di mana tuk gelak ketawa bersama sama,namun tatkala engkau orang yang susah,engkau orang mencari aku tuk menyelesaikan masalah agar situasi menjadi lebih mudah. Aku tak kesah. Malah aku lagi suka sebab susah senang bersama. Tapi bukan pertolongan yang bangsat lagi hina aku harapkan korang pinta. Apa yang aku harapkan sama sekali punah. Mereka yang hegeh minta pertolongan tu selalunya pertolongan tak munasabah. Ciptaan aku di dunia ini tuk apakah? Dijadikan sampah? heh :l
Saat ini,tatau kenapa aku sentiasa memikirkan rakan rakan seperjuangan yang tak sudah ceritanya. Bagi aku apa apa hal FRIENDSHIP tu important! Tak kira korang buat masalah meludah ludah atau apakah,korang tetap sahabat yang mikat jiwa :) Tapi kali nh tetiba aku tak tabah. Hari hari aku nk meluah. Pada siapa pun aku dah tak kesah. Yang pasti jiwa aku tak semakin parah. Kelakar bila rasanya seorang sahabat mengatakan aku seorang yang tabah. Haha! Tabah kah aku nak hadapi segalanya seorang diri tanpa keluarga terchenta,teman yang di sanjung mulia? Hee.
Orang mana yang sering tunjukkan kedukaan jiwa? Payah tuk aku temui orang sebegitu rupa. Biasanya semua akan buat buat gumbira sepertinya tak punya masalah. Macam tu juga lah aku. Tetapi tak nafikan la. Ada segelintirnya gemar menjadi sebegitu rupa. Tuk mencari simpati kabarnya :) Tapi aku,aku cuba berubah. Aku ingin selesaikan masalah sendiri dengan mudah tanpa mengharapkan ehsan sesiapa. Tak semua boleh di percaya. Cuma aku gemar berkongsi cerita. Sebab nak lihat pendapat dan nasihat dari mereka yang tak terbilang jumlahnya. Aku sentiasa hargai segalanya. Terima kasih :)



dedicated to :
Sarah Amirah Ibrahim
Trimas kerna jadi teman yang setia.Hope kepercayaan pada kalian tak menjadi sia sia :)

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

-.-

maaf atas kesilapan saya selama ini.
and tak lupa juga , salah faham antara saya dan awak.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

tak carik pasal tapayah nak buat cerita okayh.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Nowadays.

aku tak faham. mengapa dan kenapa mereka melakukan hal sedemikian. aku hairan. aku pelik. banyak soalan berkumpul di minda.
selalunya, apa yang masuk kanan, keluar telinga kanan tapi sekarang terlekat kat dalam kepala otak aku. tak boleh nak keluar selagi takde jawapan untuk persoalan aku.

lelaki mahupun perempuan. sama sahaja. yang pastinya, melayu. ber BIN dan ber BINTI. teruna dan dara. romeo and juliet.
bangga betul mereka menangkap gambar memegang botol arak seperti carlsberg, heineken and apa jadah lagilah. mereka bangga beritahu dekat semua orang mereka minom itu
minom ini. ambil itu, ambil ini. agak lah. engkau tu melayu. orang islam.
even botol arak tu kosong, tapi akan mengundang kemusykilan kepada orang lain. sedarlah sikit wahai insan. tak takot ke akhirat korang macam mane ??

jangan engkau berbangga dengan pegang benda alah tu, engkau boleh jadi famous. kau rasa hebat. kau rasa macam,

"wahh, orang tegur aku. orang pandang aku. bangganyaaaa."


come on. aku malu dengan orang macam kau. yang aku tak boleh blah, tu hah. kau, perempuan.
dedah sana sini snap gambar. tunjuk dada. tunjuk peha. oi, aku malu sebagai perempuan. tutuplah sikit weh.
aku tengok, sakit mata kot. agak agak lah sikit wahai kaum hawa. korang tak tahu ke apa yang korang akan dapat di akhirat kelak?


okay, aku bukan nak tunjuk bagus. cuma memberi nasihat. zaman muda ni, jangan terlalu hanyut. korang masih jauh.
ingat apa yang baik dan apa yang buruk. hidup kita ni hanya sementara. jagalah apa yang dikurniakan-NYA dengan sebaiknya.
nanti bila kau dah kena, baru kau tahu. menangis lah airmata darah pun, benda takkan boleh patah balik. kau faham kan maksud aku?


*ini hanya perasaan aku. aku hanya taip apa yang ingin disuarakan sahaja. aku sedar aku pown tak lah sempurna mana.
apapun, siapa makan cili dialah terasa pedasnya. sekian, terima kasih.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

human being

Kalau difikirkan. memang sudah banyak beban yang sudah diangkat. Dari yang wujud secara zahir atau halus semuanya terpateri dengan begitu ulung. Jari sudah kehabisan tatkala cuba mengira detik-detik untuk paru-paru ini menghirup udara segar untuk terus berjalan di hamparan bumi serba luas.


Kalau penat aku berhenti. Toleh kanan dan kiri memerhatikan sekalian anak Adam dan Hawa. Banyak karenah aku saksikan. Senyum, tawa, murung, sedih dan kosong. Melihat mereka secara automatik akan memantulkan refleks imej yang hampir sama gayanya.

why all this happen F ?



firdaus zainal , saya tataw ape patot saya buat. saya tahu yg saya neyh teruk. like what u said to me. tapi saya tak pernah tipu yang saya sayang kan awak. awak engat lagi kan ape yang kite plan selama neyh ? awak tahu kann saya memang serious dgn awak. tapi kenapa awak masih curiga dengan saya lagi ? saya tahu saya tade laaa perfect mana. tapi tak cukup ke ape yg saya tunjuk dekat awak selama neyh ? saya mengaku saya memang tamai kawan lelaki. tapi itu sekadar kawan sahaja. awak faham tak ? saya sayang awak. saya rinduu kan awak. bukan org laen. tapi kalau awak rase saya yang slah jugak. awak lepas kan laa saya. saya tahu saya tak mampu jadik yang terbaek untuk awak.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

see, i am back as normal.

pwas , i am back to normal . i likeee okayh ! jgn pk aku regret sgttttt. aku smoking balek. so kaw tapayah nak kesah. pasni aku saket balek lagi kaw suka kannn ? kaw rase laaaaaaaa. and aku taknak patah balek dah !

come and see

see my status on FB now. hah best takkkkkk F ?!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, October 25, 2010

what love is ?



Love is universal. Love is not the feelings that occur when you like to be with the one that you care the most. Love can be anything.
Love is not only to someone that you like, but also to your family, friends, animals and the most important thing is love the GOD.

Please,

Love your family as you will feel happy when someone that you love asks you for a date.

Love your friends as someone that you love whisper a sweet word to you.

Love the animals as someone that you love was holding your hand when walking along the beach.

Love your GOD as you had been kissed by your love.

Do not forget to love yourself. Because without love, you will feel lost in this beautiful world.
Love can bring a lot of happiness and brighten our life. You will smiling when memorizing all the sweet moments that you spent with your loves one.

The bitter will turns into sweetest thing.


note : i love all of you :(

Thursday, October 21, 2010

you and me



you are the one who makes me laugh when you know im about to cry.
you don't have to prove to me your beautiful to strangers,
cause I've got lovin' eyes of my own.
Even if we're worlds away,i'll always be your girl and that will stay :)

notes : i am heartless now because you have stolen it :)

MAMA

Mom I’m sorry for all of the tough times I put you through ,
There are many things that I did to you that I shouldn't have .
But I think it’s about time that I say I LOVE YOU .
Mom this is coming from the heart.
And that’s the only way to start . Since I was a little girl ,
My whole life went into a whirl .
I’m sorry for all of the lies And for all the times I made you cry .
I’m sorry for all of the fights I started with you .
Mom just remember I LOVE YOU !
All of the things that I have been going through makes me realize what you say is true .

Mom my whole life is on lockdown ,
Everyday I walk with a frown .
I just want to be free and live my life the way it used to be .

Mom I’m happy you are there to help me through life and that is true.
I don’t have to think twice.
Mom my whole life went down the drain ever since I went to court and went through all of that pain .
I wish I could go back and walk through life on different tracks .
Freedom doesn’t come free especially for me ,
I have committed many sins ,
But I have to stay strong .
in my life I haven’t seen many grins ,
But I'll be strong no matter how long .
I still have a lot to learn ,
No matter how much my heart burns .

Mom I’m sorry for all of the fights especially the ones that lasted all night .
My life is surrounded by a shell ,
There are not many things I can do .
I don’t know if you can tell .
But I’m not taking it very well .
Mom I just want to tell you , That I’m sorry for all the hell I put you through ,

And I want you to remember that I LOVE YOU!!
notes : i love you always mama and i mean it.

Monday, October 18, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY


happy birthday buat korang berdua :) maaf agak lambat post dekat blog saya. hehe. takpe kann ? asalkan taruk jugak gambar korang.
atas : Siti Nur Hafizah
bawah : Farhan Fazari.

sad gile , dengar budak budak 4KA3 buat reunion tak ajak aku :( nak nangesss dow :( sampai hati korang lupa kat aku ! :(

farhan, thanx sebab engat dekat kawan you yang sorg neyhhh.

I am Me


I like the way I are actually. I’m not the other person. I’m Syahnafiza Binti Yaacob and I’m proud to be my self. I have many wonderful friends that blow each of my days. I’m not alone. I have you. I have them. They are the music in me. Without them, I think my life will be empty and perhaps, I will lose. Telling the truth, I don’t mind to be someone’s friend. I’m not choosing in friendship. I can be friend with anyone, anybody. As you wish for. Yes, I love making a new friendship. But, aware! I’m not easily trust on someone. This is because there’s a devil beside you dood. =,=

For sure, I hate those silly people who think they are good enough. I hate those silly people who are think they are “hot” but they are not. Those people really make me laugh out lot. Ewwwww, I hate them. Hello loser, just be what you are. Don’t be a hypocrite person. Whatever you did, I can smell that. It is what we called FAKE. Got it? LOL

Whatever happened, I’m happy with my life. I’m happy because there are certain people make me smile every day, minutes and second. How sweet they are. At least, I know, there will be a person who cares about me. Thank you guys!

And you, thanks for keep accompany me. You are now the important part in my life. I miss you. I miss you so much FZ.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

TIRED OF THE DRAMA

I'm tired of this drama. I'm about to lose my mind. saying no more pain, no more tears. I'm tired of crying every night. no more fears. I really don't wanna cry. please, no more drama in my life. I don't ever wanna hurt again. I need peace of mind. so, please let me away from all this thing. I need to do this. I'm tired of this drama. Being sad, angry, jealous and so ever shit of feeling. sometime, I wanna be EMOOO girl so that the people can make a judge's on me. who is the winner? who is the LOSER? however, I want to be the winner. may I? let me go. let me kill myself. let me take the poison. let me being fool by the famous one. let me be shot by a cowboy. let me be killed by a monster. shall me? nahhh, I don't ever care anymore. I can be anything. I do this because I'm really sick with this problem.


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lets party today ! yeahhh , i am going to sunway. my bestfriends birthday :) sayanggg , happy birthday. tunggu i sampai ye sekejap lagi. sayanggg you sangat sangat syieza :) muah muah !

Friday, October 15, 2010

I DONT CARE AT ALL.

i dont care who loves me or not okayh. enough for me to have my BFF & BF. and also Mama.

TAK PERLU

tak perlu ada kawan kawan yang terbaek,
tak perlu ada kekasih yang sempurna,
tak perlu carik kasih sayang yang abadi.

SEBAB,
saya ada kawan kawan yang cukup baek dengan saya.
the VIP is Nurul Waridah , Ain Ridzuan, Sunita Supriyanto, Kylaa Saad, Effy Effi, Eqa Eqo, Zulasyriq & Wan Safiqri.
kawan kawan yang laen nak lupa saya , saya dah tak kesaa. sebab korang bukan peduli pasal saya dah kannnn ?
saya ada kekasih hati yang sudah cukup sempurna.
the VVIP is Firdaus Zainal.
lelaki laen saya tanak dah. Korang buang aku, thanx :) sebab last last aku jumpa lelaki yang lagi bagus dari korang.
kasih sayang yang abadi hanya dari mama saya.
i love you mama. die je yang betol betol ikhlas terima saya :)

Thursday, October 14, 2010

lapar kannn ?

I am starving right now ? Siapa sanggup masak ntok saya ? Meggi pown boleh laa. Tak boleh tdo lagi ni :(

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

a million sorry

sorry for what I did.
sorry for what I said.
sorry for what I hurt you.
sorry for all my mistake.
sorry for my rude words.
sorry for being that way.
sorry for make you cry last night.
sorry for being harsh.

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING



but deeply in my heart, i love you so much.
i hope you understand :(

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

for ?

*sapa cakap aku tak sayang ? sapa cakap aku tak rinduuu ?*

hanya aku yang mengerti perasaan aku.
korang ape tahu.

Saturday, October 09, 2010

*hmmmmmmm

*Kenapa aku yang kena jaga hati org hah?
ade ker org nk jage hati and perasaan aku!
Kenapa skrg nie aku cepat tersentap dgn org?
kenapa skrg nie aku sering bermasalah?
kenapa mesti aku alami bnda mcm nie?
Hadoi,boleh stresss aku dah nie!

__________________________________________

to : FIRDAUS ZAINAL



The best place to be on this World,
Is where my Heart is,
Right here beside You sayangg.


notes : i try to be me.

tonight.

Sejak kebelakangan ni , saya memang tade mood nak menulis. Bukak je laptop , maen game. Itu je laaa. Mukabuku , diary semua saya tgl kan. Malas nak update blog , malas nak update status. Semua gara-gara malas nak amek tahu pasal org laen and bgtahu pasal diri saya. I am tired okay ! Knowing things will be the same. Bukan mereka faham ape saya rasa , bukan saya faham ape mereka nak. And the conclusion is NO CHANGES .

Dulu saya sering mengeluh. Who is my bestfriend ? Mana mereka semua ? Kawan dua , tiga bulan then terus hilang. But now i realize. Org yg saya carik selalu ade dgn saya :) Maaf , bukan tak sedar kehadiran awak. Tp keliru dgn sikap manusia.

He is my boyfie , Firdaus Zainal. Dia laa segalanya untuk saya. Dia lah musuh , dia lah buah hati , dia jgk laa kawan baek saya. He do understand me so much. Saya saket dia jaga. Saya nak itu dia carikkan , saya nak ini dia dapatkan. Susah senang saya dia yg tahu. Dia laa tempat saya mengadu , tempat saya bermanja and dia jgk umpama bodyguard saya. Even saya gadoh teruk mcm mana pown dgn dia , dia tetap ade dgn saya.
*syg , believe me , you will always be the one i want*

by the way , tak lupa jugak buat kwn2 yg laen yg masih lg bersama dgn saya. To miraa , ejat and emir . You are the greatest friends i had. Thanx sbab always contact saya lg. Yang laen , even saya tak tulis , saya sayang korang !

Goodnight ,
xoxo

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

if you read it

tgh layan mukabuku aku suddenly terbukak myspace. then saje saje ushar. lame gile x bukak. and suddenly terbaca satu mesej dari inbox.

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haha. datang raye umah i duluu. baru i piki nk bgi ke tak kat u duit raye. haha
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: syazathegadisHAVOC | VAWC™
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:34 PM


kedekut la dye neyh.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: xxxxxxxxx.
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:33 PM


bolee.. bole blaaah la . hahaha ;)

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: syazathegadisHAVOC | VAWC™
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:21 PM


nak dwet raye lebeyh ;p

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: xxxxxxxxx
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:15 PM


ape syarat nye ? haha

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: syazathegadisHAVOC | VAWC™
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:05 PM


haha ;DD oke oke.
i maafkan kesalahan u.
tp dgn syarat ;)

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: xxxxxxxxx
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:03 PM


i nk letak lame daaa punn. tapi i nk tnye u pasal nick name dulu. haha. tu u on9 ni yg tnye ni. haha. okok. tadi i salah eja laa dol.. syazaaaa. ;p

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: syazathegadisHAVOC | VAWC™
Date: Sep 19, 2008 2:00 PM


i da tarok u kurt top i da pown yunk
taruk la. haha.
taruk syazaVAWC
not shaza ;p

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: xxxxxxxxx
Date: Sep 19, 2008 1:56 PM


weheee . sygg. i nak letak u kat top fren. tapi kan tapi. display name u panjang sngat laa. so i nk pendekkan. haha.
i letak shaza vawc bole ? haha ;p


i miss her anyway.

Monday, October 04, 2010

DINNER DGN FAMILY.

Thanx mia sebab belanja kakak kaw neyh makan :D hehe dapat jugak mkn best best mlm neyh dgn mama , abah , kikie n kurnia . even lepas tuuu tbe tbe kikie jatoh dari kerusi and dapat benjol yang besarrrrr :D hahaha.
i miss my old friends :(
sorry for my past doing.

Saturday, October 02, 2010

BLACKY HAIR


anyway , rinduuu gile dekat rambut lame aku. now blacky :(

mama said , "kenape tukar kaler rambut ?"

then i was likeee , "err , kenape ? tak okayh ke ma ?"

she said "rambut before lagi okayh dari yang ini."

hmmm, should i regret it ?
nevermind laaaa. nnt nak kaler yang baru balek pown.

only one guy je yang suka dgn rambut neyh. who else kannn. my F :) for him even ape ape yang berubah dekat i , he still love me like usual and it will never change. kannn sygg kan ?

and same goes to me. eventhough you dah berambut pendek *tak panjang mcm dulu* i still sayang dekat youu deeply.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

bye bye !

Anyway , i will change my hair colour . See the new of me by next week guy :)
bye my brown hair ! HAHA :D

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

SEX OF YOUR LAPPY .

Haaa. entry kali ni aku nak share tutorial ngan korang. korang jgn xtau. laptop pun ada jantina tau. so , nak tahu tak jantina laptop yg selalu korang hadap tiap2 hari tu jantan ke betina ?? hehehehehe korang buat je step kt bwh ni :

1. Buka notepad dan paste ayat ini dalam notepad: CreateObject("SAPI.SpVoice").Speak"I love YOU"

2. Selepas itu tekan save. Ubah save as type kepada All Files (pastikan korang save di desktop supaya senang nak cari/buka nanti).

Save as = love u.vbs

3. Close notepad apabila habis save. Then double click file td (love u.vbs) dan akan dengar suara "i love u."

Cuba dengar btul2 suara "i love u" tu. suara lelaki ke perempuan?
Kalau dengar lelaki maknanya laptop korang tu jantan dan begitu le sebaliknya.

selamat mencube ok..

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

you know who you are !

I tend to hold grudges when people make shit to me.

mula mula buat buat macam kaw baek, while actually you are not kan kannnnn ? hey, stop being hypocrite larrrr. look into the mirror and judge yourself before you judge other people.

yess, i know that i am not perfect.
i made a lot of mistakes. do you have a problem with it ?

before speaking, glance through.
YOU AREN'T AN INCH CLOSE TO PERFECT TOO ;)



later continue. tau laa kaw rindu aku kan wahai stalker. baca baca aku punya blog then kutuk kutuk. engat aku tak taw ? macam haram *.*

FERD PLS READ THIS :) TQ

khas untuk kekasih hati saya yang jauh di mata tapi dekat di hati.


"saya nak jadi sebahagian daripada hidup awak. saya nak selalu ada di hati awak. saya nak selamanya mencintai awak. sana nak awak tak hilang dari mata saya."


awak faham tak wahai sayangku ferd :) :)





notes : saya nak berjiwang di sini sebentar. anda tak kesah kannnn ?

Sunday, September 26, 2010

143 Firdaus Zainal






the power of love is :
care loyal, honest.
b with her/him ALWAYS and FOREVER.

u oh u.
i sayang u. i cinta u.
:)
i nak jadi invisible for one day even for one week.
i want to keep my eyes on u.
yeahhhh, only u !

i nak follow bontot u.
nak tau u text dgn sape.
u ym dgn sape.
u gatal tak dgn org lain sygg ??

andddddddddddddddd,
i nak tengok u tido,
nak tengok muke u bile bangon tido.
mesti comel kan syg ?
:)

i nak tengok muka u bile :
stressstrees,

mengantok,
marah,
laparr,
HAPPY
:)

boleh tak i nak jadik invisible ni ??
i nakkan u,
boleh tak ?
i cintakan u,
terima tak?
i rindukan u!!
dengar tak ?

i wanna kiss u.
wanna hug u.
seriously,
i am melting laa my darling.
bila nampak u je,
betul ni, u je ;D

iloveyou mysweetheart.

xoxo

notes : saya perlu awak selalu.
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wake up baby wake up.

baby , bangunlaaa . saya tunggu awak neyh.
lambatnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

syg : tuu laa laen kali awak tido lambat lagi. sepat perut muncet awak karangggg :D

credit to Cik Nana.

mane abah sekarang ye ?
kayong rase selame 19 tahun kayong ade dekat bumi neyh kayong takpernah raya dgn abah.
even once kann ?

mane abah sekarang ye ?
kadang kadang kayong tgk orang laen ade ayah kayong pown rase macam nak jugak ade abah.
abah tak teringin ke ?

hmmm , bile laaa dapat jumpa abah.
bile laaa dapat salam tgn abah.
bile laaa dapat rase kayong ade ayah kayong yang sebenarnye ?

kayongg rinduuu kan abah.

to abah : kalau kayong jumpa abah kayong nak jage abah.
nak abah tahu cmne kayong sayang abah.
even abah takpernah jage kayong selame neyh ;(

Saturday, September 25, 2010

KYLA BIRTHDAY PARTY




hehe , ini dye aktiviti yang saya nak bgtaw harituuu. syakilaa birthday celebtration. buat dekat rumah ain. okayh. mule mukle je dah kantoi. hahaha. ape laaa. tapi yang best nye kesian kylaa sbb last last kene tepung. tuu pown terpakse dgn rela hati menyerahkan diri. hehe. maaf ye kylaaa. ini je hadiah yang kami mampu bagi dekat awak !



okayh ini gambar beraya di rumah kylaa. memang lawa sgt rumah dye. and snap gambar pown best je. and apetah lagi , saya and group saya memang gile camera. sangat and know what kami sume dekat rumah ain je dekat 3 jam. haha buat ape pown tataw. amek gambar je byk.




and ini kawan saya yang gile bapak laa sengal. sunita supriyanto. tapi pape pown saya and dye yang memang excited sgt nak buat plan neyh. hehe. pagi pagi lagi dah suruh dye dtg kolej teman saya. and dyesanggop jugak dtg. hehe. sayang awakkkk sue. awak sayang saya ?




inilah kawan kawan saya yang terbaek di kolej. andd terlalu syg kan mereka. tapi by next sem saya dah tak same kelas dgn zul, wan, kyla & sue dah :( tapi cmne pown kite still lepak kannnnn ?
atas dari kiri : WAN , AIN , EQA & ZUL
bawah dari kiri : EFFY , KYLAA , SUE & SYAZA
not in picture : NUURUN & NURUL (masing masing ade hal dgn family)

notes : friends forever okayh ?
taknak gaduh gaduh mcm zul & sue.

Handphone membisu ?

awak ohhh awak,
mane awak pregi neyh ?
puas saya carik awak.
jangan laa macam ni.
kesian saya taw !
tolong laaa balek dekat sayaaaaaa




wahai encik handphone !

Thursday, September 23, 2010

saya rinduu mereka :(

FIRST STORY.
tibe-tibe je aku teringat Best Friends aku time sekolah rendah dahulu.


JULIE NASUHA/NORAZRI/ARWIN AZLAN

note in picture : AHMAD NAEM & ISMAIL

mula mula duluuu aku dgn Julie memang tak kawan langsung. Eventhough kitorang same same jadik wakil sekolah untuk olahraga, bola jaring and bola baling memang tak pernah langsung aku nak close dgn dia. tapi one day tuh, Cikgu Isa *cikgu bola baling kami* suruh kitorang berlatih same same. Macam bile ade Julie aku pown kene ade jugak. aku macam, what theeee ? hmm , lantak laaa. Sampai habes tournament bola baling aku kene jadik partner dgn julie. habes je latihan and game tuh, aku teruskan hari hari aku dekat sekolah.

Tibe tibe one day Julie cakap dia nak kwn dgn aku. and i was like, erkk , kenape dgn dia ? okayh laa. pape laaa. tapi kesian bestfriends aku, Eima. sorry lepastuu kite terus tak close sampai kaw pown pindah ke melaka :( i miss you anyway.


Julie pulak kawan dgn arwin, norazri, naem and ismail *nora and naem was in a same class with me tapi tak pernah bercakap* . so aku pown join group dorg.

and,

time dgn dorg memang too many sweetest memories happens :) agak agak korang engat aku lagi ke tak ye.


kebetulan , aku and julie neyh memang ganas, it was like we are tomboy. hehe. kami masing masing ade basikal. g lepak rumah kawan kawan lelaki pown naek basikal. pergi beraya pown naek basikal. engat lagi kitorang naek basikal ramai ramai. dgn boifren aku time tu sekali naek basikal. hahaha. Siap pakai BMX lagi. and duluuu aku and julie bukak bisness sendiri kat sekolah. kami jual kad hasil tangan kami sendiri. time tu memang kaya. byk gile kami dapat tempahan.

then time aku lepak dengan dorg semua jugak laa aku jadik nakal. cakap kat mama nak pergi study group dgn kwn-kwn *time tuu aku amek UPSR*. mama pown bg laa. memandangkan aku berkawan dgn top student *Julie, Arwin & Norazri*. padahal kitorang g maen bowling dekat Fajar. then sometime tuu kitorang berbasikal pergi Selayang semata nak maen game dekat sane :D naseb tak pernah kantoi dengan mama and naseb jugak result UPSR aku dapat bagus. Macam tak percaya. i got 4A 1B !

then time kwn dengan dorg jugak laa mama lepaskan aku keluar lepak and hang out dengan kawan-kawan. kitorang pergi One Utama maen game dekat twinkle *now tempat tuh dah tade dah* . Then g tempat kerja mama julie dekat KLGCC. maen bowling and swimming.
tapi sekejap je kan tuu semua. then since kite masok form one kite terus lost contact. korang semua sekolah dekat kepong. cuma aku and isma je dekat taman ehsan. even aku dgn isma satu sekolah kitorang pown dah tak berapa close even rumah dye sebelah rumah aku je. hmmmm, aku rinduu gile kat korang semua semua. korang pulakkkk ? :(

notes : satu hari teringat pasal memories sekolah rendah.tbe tbe teringat jugak dekat cinta monyet aku kat sana.dari darjah 3 sampai form 1 je. then buat haluan masing masing.nnt bile ade idea aku cerita pasal cinta monyet aku tuh .
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SECOND STORY.


when i was in form 2 aku tukar sekolah coz my family and i moving to Menjalara. i miss my bestfriends here. it should be BFF but semua dah berpecah. jumpa pown buat tak kenal. itu ke kawan?





FARHANA HAZWANI/NUR HAZELIN/RUSZALINDA AIRIN

mula mula kite memang laa tak kwn. yelaa aku student baru kan. korang yang datang kat tempat aku tanyer name semua. tapi kelakar. korang cakap english dgn aku. korang engat aku cina. hee, aku kan tak pakai tudung dgn rambut aku yang berkaler lagi. then lame lame aku jadik kwn korang. and kite bwat group Crazee^Nation. korang engat lagi tak ?

rinduuu sgt sgt dekat korang. ponteng KOKO pergi mid. sometime g lepak One Utama. then kadang kadang aku and rusza g lepak rumah fana , kadang kadang g lepak rumah rusza then kadang kadang aku.rumah alyn jarang sbb jaoh dekat menjalara b tuh. fana suka sgt belanja kwn kwn dye. kadang kadang dye nak umpan aku dengan rusza g rumah dye, dye offer nak belanja makan dekat spicy laa , barkath laa. tapi bukan sbb tu pown dye memang baek. ape prob aku mesti bgtaw dye.

then time form 3, mama and abah tiri aku kan gadoh, aku bgtaw korang then nanges nanges dekat korang. time arwah atok aku saket pown aku nanges dekat korang. time tuu korang laa tempat aku nak mengadu. lagi lagi fana. ape jadik dekat aku semua sure aku bgtaw dye. same jugak dgn dye. rinduuu sgt sgt. mama pown tahu je nak carik aku kalau aku tade dekat rumah. kalau tak rumah rusza sure rumah fana.

again aku moving. time form 4. aku tukar sekolah and fana plak pindah duduk dgn ayah dia dekat shah alam. time tuh langsung dah tak dapat and susah nak contact. cumaa fana je sampai skang still contact dgn aku. yang laen susaa sgt nak berhubung :(
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THIRD STORY.

then aku tukar sekolah ke Teknik Setapak. dah laa tukar sekolah. duduk asrama lagi. memang lagi susaa nak text kwn kwn aku. tapi dekat sini aku jumpa kwn kwn baru. aku kenal erti kwn susaa senang and hidop bersama.


MUNIRAH/YULISA/HIDD/AINA/PUYIEN/SHA

not in picture : TERA
memories time kat hostel dgn dorg memag best. dua katil tdo ramai ramai, then g mkn sama sama, solat sama sama, mandi sama sama, kene marah dgn senior pown sama sama. rinduuuu nyaa. tapi bile dah jumpa aku mcm gagap sikit dgn dorg. mungkin sebab lama sgt tak berjumpa kan. tapi cne pown aku sayang korang sangat sangat :)
actually banyak lagi nak bgtaw. ade laa lagi berape rape org kawan terbaek.
tapi mcm terlalu panjang je.
jadik baca yang neyh dulu ye.
saya rinduuuuu koranggg semuaaa !

gay , lesbian & bisex. which one ?

what do you think ?
i woke up this morning and suddenly it came on my mind.
well actually i'd thought about it long time ago.
but today baru teringat balek, hee :)



dari dulu aku suke sgt tgk perempuan yang cantikk. lepak dgn kawan kawan aku mata aku sure merayap tgk perempuan yang lawaa & sexy je. bukannya ushar lelaki. weird huh ? but hell yeah, it is true. maybeee because i am not pretty like them so i love to look at them and i wanna be pretty like them. i mean they can be my role models to look gorgeous.

but absolutely, I DO LOVEE BOYS :D

hahaha. for the record, idk what to say. idk if my friends are bisex, gays or even lesbians. coz it was their natural feelings kan ? DEPENDS. if they wanna change or not i still friends with them x)

bosan bosan bosan

today boooooooooooooooosssssssaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn =___+

*kelas tak start lagi
*mungkin tak jumpa buah hati harini
*alone at home
*no one text/call me



boring, boring, BORING !



tapi tak mengapa. esok saya nak keluar. dgn kwn kwn saya. sabar sikit ye syaza. and besok mungkin best. sbb saya, effy, eqa, ain, zul, wan, nurul & sue nak kenekan kylaa habes habesan. naseb awak laa ye kyla :D



ape plannye ?HAHAHA , ade laa. dat is secret. tgu esok okay ?

notes : besok pergi beraya area ampang and cheras dgn kwn kwn saya .

where are you sayang ?

GAH ! I dont know where you are and what you do now. No messages, no rings from you. pfft :(
I know I'd made a mistake. But cant you forgive me ? Beribuu kali I cakap pown you tak akan faham kan syg. It was a joke. Suddenly you marah I. I was cried. But surely you tak nampak. Sebab time makan I langsung tak pandang you.



Then bila you hantar I pown we didnt talk kannn. Even a WORD ! Suddenly sampai rumah, I feel like I cant breath. Oh Tuhan, kepala saket teramat. And you still standing outside. Tak mcm selalu :( Bile saya bgtahu saya saket kepala awak diam. Again and again. Tapi suddenly awak terus balek rumah. Saya terkedu.


Then I get into my room. Tunggu text dari Love Drug. Tapi hampa. Takpelaa. Mungkin still driving. Pergi mandi kejap. Bla bla bla dah siap, saya baring di katil saya. Still takde pape. Maybe you want me to start first. Okay. Saya text awak.

'Kenape terus membisu ? Dah lupe number buah hati sndr ?'

Wait , wait and wait. Still got no answer from you. I try again. Maybe buat kali terakhir.

'Okay takpe. I dah hilang bf i :) night !'

Wait , wait and wait. Almost half an hour. Still the same situation.


GAH ! I dont know where you are and what you do now. No messages , No phone calls from you. Pfft :(



(People make mistake.
I tahu dalam satu harini SORRY to byk kali I cakap dgn you.
But I am not perfect !
Takpelaaa.
Saya doakan syg jumpa kekasih yang perfect :(
I am sad when you do this to me Ferd)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

BACALAH :)

I know that my blog is getting bored by now.
HAHA. what to do. I have a lot of ideas but got no time to type it.
Jadi ape yang ade tu korg bacelah ye.
Trimasssss !

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

kadang kala sesuatu itu memang menyakitkan.
kadang kala sesuatu itu memang susah untok aku lupakan.
kadang kala sesuatu itu memang tak mudah aku maafkan.

hmmm, dats your problem.
i will never forgive you n forever i will hate you.
thank you.

S.A.R.M

cukup cukup laaa menyakitkan hati orang. aku tataw ape masalah kaw dgn aku. tapi asal sampai cmni kaw buat aku eyhhhhh ?

Monday, September 20, 2010

I LOVE YOU !
i never i will fall inlove with you,
i didn't think that you will love me like this far,
i couldn't believe you are mine,
until we finally being together sayang :)
SAYA SAYANG AWAK !
to : firdaus zainal. muah muah ! :)

Friday, September 10, 2010


pagi raya lagi buah hati saya dgn family dye dah ade depan rumah. ohh terkejut sebentar !
gembira/segan/malu segalanya ada.
dia neyh mulaa laa buat hal. tapi takpe. maken bertambah rasa sayang saya :)
and neyh gambar kami di pagi raya. before saya bertolak ke penang. okayhhh kann ?
btw , ini raya pertama kami bersama. and esok genap 6 bulan :)

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Raya datang lagi ! :) :)

Di hari raya
Terkenang daku kepada si dia
Kampungku indah nun jauh di sana
Ayah serta bondaku

Di tepian mandi
Danauku hijau yang aman damai selalu
Nun di sanalah tempat aku bertemu
Aku dan dia

( korus )
Apakan daya
Masa tak akan kembali
Hancur musnahlah semuanya

haihhh , sejak akhir akhir neyh asyik dengar lagu lagu neyh je di radio or televisyen. heyy syaza ! memang laaa. dah kate pown esok dah nak raye. awak tanak raye ke ? hehe lupe laaa.

and pada hari ini jugak saya sebok membantu abah and nenek serta kak neng mengemas rumah and memasak.



notakaki : percaya atau tidak hari ini saya rajen memasak. and hari ini jugak saya laa yang buat ketupat ! :D macam mimpi kannnn ?

Thursday, August 26, 2010

no title buat hari ini.

saya bakal merindui kawan kawan saya di kolej. memandangkan esok merupakan hari terakhir kami. segalanya memberikan kenangan bwat kami. even mula mula kami x rapat. akhirnya kami semua bagaikan satu family.

kepada yang tersayang , awak sentiasa di hati saya sayang. sentiasa. merindui awak setiap masa.

saya tidak punya masa sekarang ini untuk melayan facebook atau blog saya memandangkan saya kesibukan semenjak ini. maaf laa ye ? :)

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

minggu terakhir





this week is our last week here. so lepas neyh berakhir laa sem pertama kami di KLMU :) dan bermula laa sem dua pada september nnt.
today , last day malaysian studies. ade lagi pentomen. tapi takde mane mane group dpt mengalahkan kami :D haha , biase laaa . saya kan dah jadik pelajar bertauliah sekarang.
so far , three month di sem ini , mcm mcm yang berlaku. and group saya di sem ini was the best ever group okay ! sure lepas neyh rinduu dekat dorg dorg sume. dekat lecturer kami yang gile best KECUALI MR CHOW. tapi pape pown , saya , ain , nurul and sue still dalam kelas yang sama nnt :) cuma kyla akan terpisah dari kami. weyyy , sedih neyh. kyla kwn pertama saya dari hari orientasi. di ikuti dgn nurul. then baru kenal dgn ain n sue. tuu pown dlm kelas baru laa rapat. wan , zul , nurun , kema , kom n karen tataw lagi still akan bersama or tak. weyyy , korg the best part i've ever know kat kolej korg taw !
and tadi , si rhezal rhenado tuh tegur saya. eleh tegur pown sbb nak assignment saya. ade ke patot. tapi takpe laaa. mcm neyh laa baru boleyh jadik pelajar contoh kannnnn ? :)
walau ape pown saya x akan lupa sem pertama saya dgn budak budak kelas saya. even kami kenal tapi kami jarang bertegur. kenape ye ? hmmm , ntah laa. saya tatahu. saya bukan sombong tapi tidak byk cakap mungkin ! haha.


p/s : maaf laa ye ? :)

Saturday, August 21, 2010

:D

to all my readers, i've been so damn busy and tak dapat nak update. maaf ku pinta ya ! and trimass pada yang setia kat blog saya ni. anda lah yang saya sayang :D

kesibukan saya for the last few days sampai tak cukup rest membuatkan saya tak sihat untuk beberapa hari kebelakangan ini.

sepanjang 2 minggu lepas saya sibuk menyiapkan assignment basic english yang tertangguh (sudah dihantar! :D) dan assignment malaysian studies saya yang hendak dipentaskan pada selasa lepas (17 aug) dgn persediaan terakhir. tambahan lagi dgn final exam yang semakin hampir.

assignment basic english saya dan ain orang yang pertama hantar ! wahhh , bangga gile. even kitorang maen bantai je buat. tapi okay laa. buat sendiri taw ! takde nak ciplak mane mane. and assignment malaysian studies , group saya mendapat full mark ! n merupakan group yang terbaek. x menyesal kami berlatih setiap minggu untuk mendapat markah yang betol betol memuaskan hati kami pada akhirnya.

even pada hari pementasan group kami saya sememangnya tengah demam , tapi saya laratkan jua. yelaaaa , markah untuk final exam neyh. bersusah susah dahulu bersenang senang kemudian. akhirnya , saya dapat jugak ape yang saya nak.

tapi akhirnya , balik je dari kelas , suhu badan saya naek mendadak. keesokannya dan seterusnya saya tidak menghadirkan diri ke kelas. memandangkan keadaan saya yang maken teruk dan menghidapi jangkitan paru-paru.

tapi kawan kawan saya masih x lupa menghubungi saya untuk memberitahu perkembangan kolej dan bertanya khabar. thanx korang :D

and semenjak saket , saya sudah lame tidak berjumpa dgn kekasih hati saya, Firdaus Zainal. walaupun kami masih berhubung tanpa henti , hati ini masih lagi merindui dia. haihhh , kenapa laa saya lambat sgt nak sehat. x sabar nak berjumpa dgn si dia lagi !

p/s : rinduuu sgt sgt dekat awak ! :D

Friday, August 20, 2010

KENAPA YE ?

kenapa sekarang dah x mcm dahulu ye ? family saya dah laen kenape ye ? why now evrything change ?

disini saya nak luahkan apa yang terbuku dihati saya. perasaan geram , sedih , benci , meluat , rindu segalanya ada. i want things happen like before. saya rindu kisah silam saya.
first thing , saya geram dengan family saya. ini ke family ? mama dah berubah. since she married with his new man, i mean my step dad. and mama maken berubah bila dye sudah ada anak sendiri dgn dat guy. saya mengaku , saya tidak pernah membenci step dad saya. tapi sometime he is very annoying laaaa. nenek pown x berape suka dgn dye.

second thing , kenape keadaan sekarang x mcm dulu ? zaman dulu punyer puasa best sgt sgt. engat lagi time ade arwah atok. setiap hari , aku dan sepupu-sepupuku ke masjid untuk terawikh. memang best sgt kalau nak di ingatkan semula. sepupu saya semuanya jantan. tade betina langsung. ape lagi perangai pown dah mcm jantan laaa. orang semayang kita pergi maen kejar-kejar belakang masjid. dengan kawan kawan lelaki semuanya. kecik-kecik mane tahu erti malu kan ? ke bazar ramadhan. atok mesti bagi sorang RM5 beli makanan. hehe , kadang kadang simpan dwet tuh nnt jalan jalan jumpe bunga api beli :) sweet sgt kecik kecik dulu. tapi ape yang faveret time puasa dulu air slurpee dekat seven eleven tuh. perghhhhh , dapat tuh pown cukup. memang best. dulu slurpee murah then besar. x mcm sekarang. rinduuuu sgt sgt kannnn ?

thirdly , raya tahun neyh pertama kali sepupu sepupu saya tidak beraya di sini ;( sedih teramat. so mlm raya ni x meriah laa. sepupu sepupu saya yang dah besar tuu balik kampung dorg belah mak dorg. then adek aku mya plak kemungkinan besar ke singapore dan el plak kerja. haihhhhh , yang tinggal nnt sepupuku yang kecik kecik seperti izad , haziq dan adik adik aku yang masih x boleh bercakap lagi , kikie dan kurnia. sunyi laa jwbnya kan. kalau x selalu sampai ke pagi saya tgu sepupu saya balek dari takbir raya. sbb nak tahu byk mane dwet raya dorg dapat mlm tuh :)


haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
tu je mampu saya cakap :(

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

why it's happen today ? why did he hurt me badly ? doesnt he know dat i cant stop crying right now ? doesnt he know dat im terrible hurt ? it should be the happiest day. we should spent our time. it's our 5th month together. doesnt he happy with this relationship ?

some things arent easily forgotten, nor forgiven.

F,
its our 5th month being together. too many things happen in our relation. sometimes up and sometimes down. you know kan dat i am truly loving you ? but why you make all this happen ? you tahu x yang i terlalu excited today. cant you see it from my face ? cant you read it with all my text since last night ? ohhh Gosh. maybe im the one who yang perasan. sedangkan you today ? NO MOOD ! F, im truly hurt right now. i x sangke you buat i mcm neyh.



p/s : btw, happy 5th month anniversary syg.
i do love you , but i hate you too :(

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

ntah PART 2

ntah kenape harini saya mudah teramat menanges. lihat org itu saya menanges , dgr crite ini saya menanges. haihhh , terlalu sensitif rupanya hati saya hari ini.

first story.
tadi time dekat KFC. ade seorang uncle india ni masuk. then kire kire duet dye. i dont know what he want. then dye pergi ke cashier.

uncle : saya nak beli ayam satu ketul ade x ?
cashier : ayam satu ketul takde. minimum ade dua ketul je.
uncle : dua ketul harga berapa ?
cashier : dua ketul set dgn air RM9.75. Tanpa set RM6.05 sahaja.
uncle : ohhh. so RM4 x cukup nak beli ke ? takpe laa. sorry.

saya yang melihat kejadian tuh menanges tgk uncle india tu. x sampai hati. yelaaa sampai kire kire duit syiling yang dye ade. saya panggil tapi dye x toleh kebelakang dah. tbe tbe terengat satu kesah di jalan sultan ismail. saya terlihat nenek tua jual keropok keropok. 5 bungkus RM10. siap panggil panggil org. tapi takde sape pown yang beli. saya yang x sampai hati ni pergi laa ke nenek itu. dgn tujuan untuk bersedekah. saya beli 2 bungkus je tapi dgn membayar RM10. nenek itu suruh amek lagi. saya kate tak ape. then dye nak pulangkan baki. saya tolak. dgn tidak sengaja air mata saya mengalir. kenape dia jadik begitu ? mana anak yg patot menjaga dia ketika nyawanya di hujung hujung dunia ?

second story.
saya mendapat 2 misscall dari unknowm number. kali ketiga unknown number tu call saya, saya jawab.

unknown : hello , ini syaza kawan tieqa ke ?
me : tieqa mane neyh ye ?
unknown : tieqa kwn awak yang kat fb tuh. betol ke ?
me : ohh nur atieqah. haah. kenape ye ?
unknown : ini kakak tieqa. tieqa dah takde.

(suddenly my tear drop down)

me : akak jgn maen maen kak.
unknown : betol. dye dah meninggal.
me : ble kak ? cmne boleyh jadik ?
unknown : dye excident petang tadi. sekarang ade dekat hospital

ohhh gosh. jantung saya bagai direntap. atieqah merupakan sahabat saya di fb yang terlalu rapat. eventhough saya x pernah berjumpa dgn dia lagi , saya terlalu lalu menyayangi dia. tapi rupe rupenye , unknown itu ialah atieqah. dia boleh lagi maen maen dgn gaya mcmni. saya dah pernah hilang seorang kawan satu ketika dahulu, Assyila Awing Ding. Ohh Gosh. saya terlalu merindui dia. tapi saya tahu dia telah tiada lepas 3 bulan kepemergiannya. saya engat tu hanyalah gurauan sahabat sahabat saya. saya ke rumah nya dan ibunya memberitahu yang benar bahawa dia telah tiada. dia tidak sempat dibawa ke hospital akibat apendix. menanges saya mengetahui ini semua. she was a great friend eventhough for a few months only. dia nak memeluk Islam. tetapi, her faith was already decided.

Monday, August 02, 2010

saya time muda muda dahulu :)





















haha ini saya ketika muda muda dahulu. comel kannnn ? bangga diri kejap.

Sunday, August 01, 2010

ntah

ntah tataw kenape byk je stranger yg tegur tegur aku.

first mamat myvi berambut afro. tataw ape masalah ntah. ckp dgn aku tapi aku x dgr pown. layan mp3. haha semak je.

second aunty perdana dgn anaknyer. tanyer aku mane jalan nak pergi Zoo Negara. haha , nak tergelak aku. Nombor plat KL. tapi takan tataw jalan nak pergi Zoo Negara kowt.

haihhh , ntah asal laaa hari ni kannn.